Another day of unpacking and trying to find a home for far to much stuff! I still cannot work out how to use the oven so no pizza for me this evening! Pretzel has escaped three times because she just dashes out the door at top speed whenever it is opened… Need to get the fenced decking sorted so that she is better contained. And I have looked at the launderette – so complicated! What is this card I have to use? Arghhh.
Despite the tedious unpacking and the odd problems, I have had a good day. I have no deadline – for the first time in weeks. I can get things done at my own pace. I enjoyed my short trip into Hastings. I enjoyed waking around the site with Pretzel trying to get my bearings. I now have caravan envy – some of the vans are so wonderful. I have found some ideas for decking though. Lots of people were siting outside today in the sunshine. Some were sitting at the Club House – I haven’t ventured there yet. Would be a lot nicer with someone to go with. I am currently Billy No Mates lol.
I am falling in love with this place. My van is in a really good spot… Not too noisy. I like the compactness of it. I stayed with a friend who lives in a 4 berth touring van a couple of times last year – I loved the simplicity of it. I remember it as a very peaceful home. My van is a lot bigger and I have so much more stuff! And I will have two teenagers living here too. But I still love it. The site is strangely quiet considering its size and the number of families who live here. and all of the vans and plots are different. I loved the little bit of Hastings I experienced too. I am excited to see more.
As I was unpacking, I started realising that there is a lot of things that I haven’t had a chance to do recently – reading, crochet, walking. I want to do more art – maybe mandalas. I have not had the chance to meet up with friends. I haven’t meditated enough. I haven’t been to the park or the beach. I have missed so many Sangha nights because I was in Hereford. I haven’t even cooked myself proper meals. My life has consisted of driving, packing, grieving and organising… And today I realised that I had got into the habit of collapsing on the settee at the end of the day with Netflix / Amazon Prime and a drink. Not skillful at all. I have also realised that it is going to be very difficult to get back into good habits / skillful living again.
It will be easy if you believe it will be easy – it will be harder if you believe it will be! What we believe we manifest, trust in yourself, you have come so far and are rocking what you are doing. Be kind to yourself and nurture your inner child, speak to yourself without criticism because you are amazing, and you are dealing with so much so remember that although you may not have done all of those things recently, you are creating a life in which it is all possible! Lots of love to you – when can I come and see the new pad??!! xxxxxx
Yes – I see what you are saying. I think that those things that I want to go back to doing require more effort. Once I get going it will be fine.
You can come over any time! I actually have some seats clear now!!! xxx