So much is happening right now. I have so much to do. My brain is having to work overtime to keep track and get it all done in a timely manner. I have an A3 piece of paper with my schedule over the next two weeks mapped out with brightly coloured sharpies. This is the 3rd piece of A3 as life keeps changing. The other two sheets torn up and placed in the recycling bin.
Some of what I have to do is unbearably sad. So heartbreaking. It marks an ending. But a lot of what I have to do is incredibly positive. The beginning of a new life for me. Endings and beginnings coming together on a sheet of A3.
As I carry out my tasks, I am constantly reminded of the truths of life. The impermanence of everything. The suffering inherent in human life. The inevitability of death. But this time is also showing me the strength and compassion of which human beings are capable. My mum’s strength and courage – her determination to remember the joy that Dad brought to her life. The compassion and practical help given to her by her many friends. She is part of a community – a Christian community centred around a small Baptist church in the Herefordshire countryside. They are looking after her and making everything just a little easier for her. She has other friends as well who are all helping her in this sad time.
Now back to the A3 sheet of paper to point me to what I have to do next!